The New BFF

I have been alone all these years with my irrational fears

And now before me I see

Someone with whom I agree

I found a brand new best friend

And it’s me!!

When the whole world goes blabladeedumdeebladeedum there’s always one person that you can always count on and that is you, you and you: YOURSELF.

Today Z and I spent hours doing nothing on the busiest road in Lahore, Shahrah-e-Quaid-e-Azam. Being girls, that can put us in serious social trouble. For both of us the day had a weird bumpy start and at the end of it we stood at Ferozesons seeing Self-help books: A thousand ways to be successful, A trillion ways to have your loved one, A gazillion ways to speak in public. What made us ‘kinda’ happy were the mute Buddha statues, paintings on ivory, second century armory and the art carved on wooden Mughal doors at the Lahore Museum and of course Pizza Hut. We had what we loved and cherished the moment of having it. There were no heavy words burped out by a constipated healer, because unless you really have the will to shrug off all the crap from your mind, you can never do so. It was both of us trying to make the both of us and our individual selves happy. And we did too.

The fact is that it is not a bad thing to be grumpy, slouchy , emo, moody until you’re not hurting anyone with it. It’s best to make yourself friends with people without depending on them. Depend on yourself for your crap, deal with yourself, indulge in activities you’re passionate about. Passions are necessary, even if they are fleeting ones. Don’t ever expect every single person around you to understand your passion. I work like a crazy bull as a freelancer and a home tutor. For what? Just to go to KFC, Pizza hut, Fri Chicks every month. My father thinks that it’s the most foolish thing a person can do, especially when they’re always short of money but when your heart wants it, you gotta do what you gotta do baby! Instead of wanting someone who’d pamper you, pamper yourself. Accept responsibilities which truly are R-E-S-P-O-N-S-I-B-I-L-I-T-I-E-S and not superfluous favors from you to people. No matter how much you avoid, you can never stop yourself from expecting a wee bit of something from the other person sooner or later, and in the current century we all know what that leads too. The time that you spend worrying about coming up to XYZ’s expectations should be spent on yourself. That is a form of self-obsession and it’s very likeable.

Moral: Learn a lesson from Dr. Doofenshmirtz i.e., find your new best friend and love him/her, and screw Dr. Phil aside for some time.

Dedicated to Zain at http://thememorystreet.blogspot.com/